
Family, friends, fans and tweeps on July 7th 2010 I experienced a life changing moment. I was asked to be a pallbearer for my brother Phife’s Grandmother, Eugenia Boyce (may she rest in peace). It was an honor to be a care taker for her as she made her final journey. I was a bit nervous but happy to be there for the family. Little did I know how much this was going to affect me.
As I took a hold of Granny I was instantly drawn to the time my brother and I physically placed my father in his final resting place. If you don’t know anything about an Islamic burial, the loved one is placed into the grave minus the coffin and we lay them there like a sleeping baby. Let me tell you that particular ritual truly makes you have a reverence for The Creator.
All funerals are a reminder to the living that life is precious and encourages us to not waste the time we are given. Mrs. Boyce aka “Granny’s” service was no different with one exception, her life was truly inspiring.
She lived all of her life in service of others. Not only was she a teacher but at the age of 50 she went to school to become a registered nurse. As I’m sitting in the service I’m hearing this and I’m like “really?” who does that sort of thing? Answer; a truly exceptional and giving person. She did so much for so many and I can not begin to break it down here. Granny certainly did not waste the time she was given.
The service suddenly became heavy, not in the sense of tears and sadness but more like realizing that I have not put in enough work into this life. If I was to leave here now what will they say? He had a few great songs and touched people with his performances? Please don’t get me wrong, it is a blessing to be able to touch people and to unite the masses via song, but there is more in life that I am capable of. I began to realize that in order to serve people in the way Mrs. Boyce did I would have to shed my own self wants. Her service made me look at all of my interactions with people, specifically the people closest to me. Yes I’ve done a bit of good things to people but I have also been arrogant, stubborn and selfish too. In pursuit of making my way in life I have put up walls and alienated those that laid themselves for me, so stupid. It caused me to really evaluate my life. I was able to directly pinpoint the moment I became me. A blip from my childhood was the cause but I sat in the service seeing clear as day the change that needed to be made. AND I instantly was able to break free of what has held me back for so many years.
I take a moment to be this vulnerable in hopes that someone else will be inspired by Phife’s Grandmother to the degree that they too can break what holds them. My only desire in life are 3 things, to serve my Lord to the best of my abilities, to be a service to mankind as I am humanly capable and to receive love from “the one”. That is all.
I would like to thank everyone that has allowed me into their life via personal relationships or through music. I would like to apologize to those that I have wronged and ask for your forgiveness. I humbly leave you asking you to let today be the day you make change for the better and to spend everyday thereafter striving to live up to it. May Allah guide us all righteously.
Salaam..